Starting the Blog Journey

I've been contemplating this for a long time. When I was in middle school, I blogged...in a Lisa Frank diary...about random middle school drama, boys I had a crush on, band geek stuff, and family drama. I lived in a big city but was in a small bubble, in my own little world. I remember realizing that my world was so small and there was such a big world out there to explore.

Since then, I've always been an explorer.

Don't get me wrong, I am not a travel blogger or world adventurer. I travel in the means of pivoting to different small worlds, challenging myself to become a new and a revised me. When I married, at the age of 22, my dad found all of my Lisa Frank diaries that had been stored at home in a container. He was furious. Being super conservative and never allowing us to have the American liberty all my other classmates had, he was surprised to learn that I had boyfriends in middle school, my first kiss, my family drama, and the dreams I had to marry my middle school crush when I was older. He learned about who I was, my heart, my dreams...and he was not happy.

At the age of 22, dad burned my diaries so that "my husband would never read them" as if I had been the worse person in the world. I was torn and hid myself, at that ripe age, from sharing my feelings or dreams because I thought that it might then be a bad thing to want to be myself.

Today, I can say a divorce, a current separation, and many different trial and error careers, (now around the corner of my 40s too!) I've learned that being me is the only person I want to be. Do I regret anything in life? Sometimes. I wish I would have made different choices. Would I really change it? Absolutely not.

If today you are wondering if you are weird, different, abstract, or even consider that how you feel is wrong, know this: You are you and that's 100 percent amazing. Are you perfect? No. But you will find God and He first allows you to see that you are fine to come just as you are. He starts to mold you and soon, very soon you will become perfection when we are with Him. Love you sis. Love you bro. We are loved.